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Old 4th July 2020
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I was just diagnosed as autistic......

Hey guys, at 29 years old I just got diagnosed autistic.....

Growing up I never sang cause I hated the sound of my voice, hated children’s music. I took piano lessons starting around age 6. I had the ability to play back songs I heard. I soon began asking my piano teachers to play songs so I could hear them. I didn’t practice reading music. At age 14, I worked full time and flipped thru about 30 guitar amps looking for perfect tone. I was getting gigs because I had the ability to learn songs(or fake it) because of my good ears....studied jazz in college, dropped out to go on a tour. I lacked the ability to focus on repetition and consistency, I was bothered by so many small details that I would constantly get internally frustrated. I also lacked social skills. I was fortunate to work for good people who took care of me. Around age 22 I gave up on music. I hated myself for doing it everyday. Last year at age 28 I realized that if I wasn’t exercising creativity and utilizing my abilities, I’d regret my whole life, regardless of my measure of success.

I recently started therapy and have come to learn that I’ve struggled heavily with autism my whole life. It’s a blessing because of sound sensitivity, but now I understand my deficiencies. I am learning strategies and coping mechanisms to function more optimally. I hope to get back into music full time. I feel I’m getting old, but I hope to be back better than ever.

I’ve helped many friends with songwriting, producing, mixing, live sound, playing techniques, arrangements, Etc but always struggled with my own stuff. I would get too caught up in details that it crippled me. This is what I’m working thru.

If any of you guys have autism or know of any great resources, I’d really appreciate it. I’m new to all of this.
Old 6th September 2020
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I'm sure your story is familiar to a lot of folks here.

The sensitivity to hearing is a blessing and also a curse. I wear ear plugs because of it but things still get on my nerves. A lot of autistic people (on various parts of the spectrum) don't understand what is going on with them and end up feeling "cursed" and alienation is a big problem for people in that situation. At least you're still young and have plenty of time to grow into yourself without feeling like an outcast of society.

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Originally Posted by thepilgrimsdream ➡️
Hey guys, at 29 years old I just got diagnosed autistic.....

Growing up I never sang cause I hated the sound of my voice, hated children’s music. I took piano lessons starting around age 6. I had the ability to play back songs I heard. I soon began asking my piano teachers to play songs so I could hear them. I didn’t practice reading music. At age 14, I worked full time and flipped thru about 30 guitar amps looking for perfect tone. I was getting gigs because I had the ability to learn songs(or fake it) because of my good ears....studied jazz in college, dropped out to go on a tour. I lacked the ability to focus on repetition and consistency, I was bothered by so many small details that I would constantly get internally frustrated. I also lacked social skills. I was fortunate to work for good people who took care of me. Around age 22 I gave up on music. I hated myself for doing it everyday. Last year at age 28 I realized that if I wasn’t exercising creativity and utilizing my abilities, I’d regret my whole life, regardless of my measure of success.

I recently started therapy and have come to learn that I’ve struggled heavily with autism my whole life. It’s a blessing because of sound sensitivity, but now I understand my deficiencies. I am learning strategies and coping mechanisms to function more optimally. I hope to get back into music full time. I feel I’m getting old, but I hope to be back better than ever.

I’ve helped many friends with songwriting, producing, mixing, live sound, playing techniques, arrangements, Etc but always struggled with my own stuff. I would get too caught up in details that it crippled me. This is what I’m working thru.

If any of you guys have autism or know of any great resources, I’d really appreciate it. I’m new to all of this.
Old 29th October 2020
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I hope you are doing well.
Old 29th October 2020
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It seems like you have good insight into yourself, and that's a great resource to have. I identify with much of your story, although I have never sought a diagnosis. Best of luck with your future work and progress.
Old 1st March 2021
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Hey guys, at 29 years old I just got diagnosed autistic.....
hey

first off, you're not old. I'm 44 and just started my second company at 41. look after your mind and your body, and keep doing whatever brings you joy.

I have sound sensitivity (hyperacusis) and have often wondered if I'm on the spectrum. prolonged exposure to noise, especially excessive speaking or crowd noise, becomes abhorrent to me, I find my mind trying to track every conversation simultaneously. it becomes completely exhausting and I just have to get away and sometimes even fall asleep from the exhaustion!

on the other hand, music and sound has always brought me the most wonderful ... I don't even know the word. frisson?

apparently autism is really difficult to diagnose in adult women and I've (as yet) never felt the need for a diagnosis. I'm quite aware my thinking seems to occur in a very different way than most people, and I feel like I'm sometimes misunderstood for this, but nowadays I like who I am and it doesn't bother me anymore .

people can be pretty hard on themselves... especially creative people and deep thinkers which I suspect you might be. I used to be a lot kinder to others than I was to myself... it's helped me a lot to try and think 'if I was my most precious best friend, how would I treat myself?' and with practice, I'm a lot happier and kinder to myself, though I still have a ways to go.

I think you're amazing taking steps to learn about yourself, and getting to know yourself is one of the most worthwhile things someone can do. Go you <3

Last edited by Samantha Glocker; 1st March 2021 at 05:09 PM.. Reason: clarity
Old 1st March 2021
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🎧 10 years
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Originally Posted by thepilgrimsdream ➡️
If any of you guys have autism or know of any great resources, I’d really appreciate it. I’m new to all of this.
I was also dx in my late 20s. I greatly prefer to read books on autism by people who actually have it.

examples:
-Any book by Temple Grandin, a scientist with autism, one of the first public figures with autism. There is also an HBO movie about her.
-Look me in the eye. A book by someone struggling to know what made them different, when the are finally diagnosed autistic in his 40s. He was a guitar tech for the band Kiss. He wrote other books also "Be Different", a how-to guide for grown-ups with autism. His brother wrote "Running with Scissors" which is banned from many schools.
-Pretending to be normal, written by a female dx as autism.
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